back to 110 after drinking and eating...i went low carbing for a while so when i got drunk i decided i missed bread and ate like a half a loaf of it...i never thought id miss it that much. inhibitions about food go out the window and i pig out. so ya all my good work out the window.

I would love if someone had same stats as me and would work together :)

ok........i have had anorexia for 3 damn years.. how is it that i am at my heaviest weight at just a bit over 100? ok yah. im 17... i hit puberty...boobs..hips.. thighs....blah blah......oh and that stupid relationship that made me eat eat eat......well now i have bulimia too..she has helped..but ana is disappointed in me....ill find that girl thaat was 92pounds..i MUST find her..............

Herro all!
I'm kitty :)
I have been a member of this community for some time now but I rarely use lj for much these days and didn't realize I was a part of this community ^_^
hope everyone is having a merry christmas and happy holidays! (if you're celebrating) I'm trying to not worry about treats and desserts here and there but it's really hard.. I miss my normal routine and it's hard to adjust.
But holidays are only a few days out of the year, right?!

I'm 20 1/2 years old,
to be technical I'm 5'3 1/2"
stats:
CW 102
HW 109
LW 94
GW ..

I just want to be less than 100 pounds again tbi.
( more about me.. )

Ugh. I miss school all ready because I want to start my days off exactly like this.

A cigarette, tea, and my computer.




I have to settle with my tea and a computer. Not good enough.

New Years Resolution?
To get rid of college freshman 15 & more.

whataboutyou?
:)

im sick sick sick sick sick sick sick and sick of not following my diets :( but I'mma start over. again. I keep on losing 5 pounds and then gaining it all back. bahhhh anyway new plan is to have a daily intake of 0. Whatever i eat/drink i must and will burn off. If I do this for two weeks then I'll lose 7.7 lbs.

Bmi now: 17.9 (but im still bloated so idk for sure but its still huge since last yr (15)
Bmi after: 16.6 :) 

hope i can do this...anyway good luck with your goals everyone

my stomach looks flatter but to be honest what I really want is thinner limbs and my arms and legs look about the same to me.

also I made a discovery. Spaghetti squash is only about 50 calories per cup. It's a bit bland on it's own but it's really good with parsley and lemon juice. I have a lot left so I am going to eat some with tomato sauce and pretend it's real spaghetti.
yum!

During the past week or two I've been eating by pretty shitty. Not a full 2000 calories a day or anything, but not nearly as well as I usually do. I guessed that I had gained about 7 or 8 pounds, but I don't have a scale at school so I didn't know for sure. I had bought my dress for my sisters wedding last August, so when I came back to Michigan I was afraid it would be too small. It was actually a bit looser than I remember, and when I weighed myself on a scale, I weighed the same as I did last time I weighed myself, which is 128. I don't know if its because I've had to walk everywhere at school because its too snowy to ride my bike or if I'm just lucky, but I haven't gained any weight.

There's a gym my dad has a membership to 5 miles away from his new house that I can use if I want, so I'm probably going to start power walking there, doing some weight lifting and cardio, and then walk back home again.

I hope you are all doing well!

Are there things you saw when you were younger in people, that you now realize were symptoms of a possible ED? Or even in friends, strangers, etc. I feel like now that ive kind of gotten in to the ED "lifestyle", i feel like i pick these things out in people and always think '...do they have an ED?'

I did competitive swimming for 10 years-synchronized swimming, so all girls, on teams. 95% of the girls on these teams are thin-and the thinner the better (because youre lighter; can get higher out of the water, etc). I remember when i was about 12-13, we were at a long, grueling 3 hour practice....and in the middle we would take a 15 min break and usually our coach would provide us with a snack to keep our energy up. Then we would all run in to the changeroom to stand under the showers since the water in the pool was so cold and it was so nice. I remember when we were all going back out on deck together, one of the girls stopped to use the toilet. We stood outside of the stall waiting for her as we heard her throwing up. One of my teammates asked if she was ok or feeling sick-but when she came out, she just cheerfully smiled, washed her hands, and rinsed her mouth out with water and said "No, i just dont want to get fat from our snack". Someone asked "So you throw up?" and she said "yeah".

And then we all went back out on deck and it was like all she had done was put on mascara or something. I dont think we ever considered it an ED, just a funny thing that this girl did-that we didnt really understand or care about. I never really became friends with her-she quit after 2 years of swimming. Now shes going to law school.

If I'm eating around 800 calories a day (veggies, fruits and lean proteins), how is my weight going up?